IN THE LAP OF THE GODS

<< It's so easy, but I can't do it
So risky - but I gotta chance it
It's so funny, there's nothing to laugh about
My money, that's all you wanna talk about
I can see what you want me to be
But I'm no fool

It's in the lap of the Gods...>>
(Freddie Mercury - In the lap of the Gods)

It’s a quiet Saturday morning here in Finland. The sky is blue, temperature is nicely and snow is about to thaw.

I’m watching a little child who is playing in the garden with her toys. She seems happy to enjoy this sunny spring day and she smile at her mummy waving her spade and throwing away the sand all around her. She’s pretty! She wears a blue sweat suit, a pink jacket with hood and a pair of pink sneakers! She’s so beautiful! She looks like a little elf!

The Sun…yeah! Do you have any idea how beautiful is the sun in Finland? It has a different light… In my opinion is more shining and get wonderful the already wonderful blue sky. Everything is magic in Finland, in every season of the year.

Now, in spring, you can attend to the awakening of the nature. Trees start to get green, squirrels come out from their holes, seagulls flight over the sky and you can hear them everywhere…

Some flower are blooming up from the snow, air is cool, people start to leave at home their hats and they put on their sunglasses. It’s sounds like a new start. It’s seems in according with my own situation. I’m come back to life…

I’m still waiting for an important answer…it’s about a potential job. I hope I’ll get it. I need it.

Having a job it means free entrance to the Finnish system, social life, and everything is useful for the staying. Because I want to stay. I want to stay and living here. I love this place.

Since the time I’ve known this wonderful Country my desire was to set up a new life here.

I do want to be part of this little world, full of nice people and true values. I want to know everything about this wild land and its culture. I want to know more about its history, its past and the mores. And then I want to be able to speak Finnish! I’m trying so hard to study it…it’s difficult but not impossible. How surely every good Finn says: “Sky is the limit!” So, stop chatting and go to study!

“Mary, you’ve got the Sisu so then you’ll do it!”  (What a good mantra, uh?)

Joking aside…I’m serious…

 I want to live…to grow up…to get older…and to die here. I do want be useful for myself and for this Country I love so much. I want my bones someday (so far I hope!) can be buried down into this ground and then, when all that will happen, "we" can be as one.

Sometimes (as it’s happening right now, in this moment) tears fall down upon my face…I don’t know why…

Maybe because I’m about to find my way…or maybe because this place makes me feel like home…

Or simply because I know it’s the place where I belong.

God bless (my wonderful) Finland…